At the Crossroads!!!

Whenever we are at the cross roads of our life... When we are expected to make the right choices and make all the right decision, why is it that we go through such a stress... Every choice comes with its own pros and cons.. Nothing is perfect. And if something looks perfect then just look out for the asterik mark.. the hidden terms and conditions which will follow... So why are we so afrain of making decisions.. What are we really afraid of? Are we afraid of failure which our wrong choices mite lead us to or we are afraid of disappointing others around us. I am not a synic but yes i am not the best of the optimist. I always try and see the negative first then after a huge fight between my head and heart the choices are justified.


Making choices is a nightmare for me! If Only life was like KBC! It would have been so much more easier... Every decisions would have had multiple options. The smallest decision of buying a watch took me some 6 months! I knw I knw its a hell lot of time but i cant seem to make choices in haste... But according to my observation i always seem to go with the choice i have made at the first go... My heart seems to decide and my brain reasons, fights and eventually agrees with what my heart has decided... Sometimes I think of this huge waste of time but it seems I get mental peace at the end of the whole R & D process...For me i will be fine with whatever choices i make even though they could be wrong.. Coz at the end of the day it would be my decision unlike some one elses choice forced upon me..

Wedding Bells!!!

Disclaimer:: This note is not meant to demean any of my married or about to be married friends.. I am very happy for you and wish you all the happiness.. But this is dedicated to all my single friends who are bearing the brunt of the deeds that u guys have done!!!
You know what?? XXXX is getting married!!!
Guess What!!! I am getting married!!!
Tada - XXXXX has updated his/her Relationship Status to married/engaged/commited

Since past year and half have been hearing from friends, collegues about them getting hooked, engaged and married..Off lately I have been hearin this words way too often... While i feel happy for all my friends who are getting hooked the question which ticks me off is when they end the conversation by asking - So when are you getting MARRIED? This 'M' word really gets to me!!! I cant understand the logic behind that question!! Is it because you know you are putting your happiness and freedom on stake that you want to wish to see all happily single people married!! Within a span of one year so many friends of mine have changed their display pics.. From being the self obsessed narcissism they have changed it to oh choo sweet couple pics!!! When I see that, the only thing which pops in my mind is WHY D HECK??

The worst one comes when you are at a social family gathering! The only reaction you get is - Oh My god u are all grown up... When are you inviting us to your wedding... ( the thing that goes in my mind is - Wht made you think i would never grow up!! and u wish to see me sacrificed to the fire gods just for the heck of a free meal!!)

The rare and extinct species of my single friends is quickly diminishing and I wish I can run a campaign similiar to 'Save the Tiger' :) Recently I was chatting up with a friend who is fortunately Hapy and Single!! and because he is male his expiry date has some more additional years as compared to the ones we females have! Now he was also cribbing about the noose getting tighter round his neck and my heart goes out to him... Coz as your age limit crosses 25 the number of profiles on various matrimonial sites and marriage bureaus increase too.. In case u are smart and lucky enough to catch hold of someone who you can bear for the rest of your life and is approved by your parent you can feel spared from the public humiliation of being paraded off as an eligible bachelor by friends and family..

PS: I am still single and very happy with my life..Dont try and mess it!!!

Scribbles

Suddenly I stopped and looked back... Got worried as to what was i running away from and what was i running after... I figured that all my life i chased something which i never wanted just because i didnt knew what i really wanted... What a waste of life... Though cant get the lost time once again... hope to make up for the time lost...

Some of you walked into my life and made it better, others walked out and made it bloody fantastic...!! and people commented

Its one of those days when i am happy with people, life and generally the way things are around me.. The other day i posted something on my status message on facebook - Some of you walked into my life and made it better, others walked out and made it bloody fantastic...!! and people commented... I think of all the people who have come and gone in my life.. On second thoughts not many have gone out... So this one is dedicated to all the superb people who have been in my life.. I wont name any one just for a simple reason, that if i miss someone they dnt feel bad!! :)

School days I had a very limited set of people i talked to and now when i think back and realise why I used to get comments of being a snob... I was not good looking nor intelligent yet had this weird problem... That has been their with me ever since.. I speak to only those who i like.. the rest of them can go to hell and i wouldnt care much. School gave me a friend for life.. We have been together eversince jr kg and touch wood still we are 'bumchums'. Love god for such a wonderful friend... Didnt have too many people around where I lived but yea their was a phase when we used to play with kids from our society... Their also I got to know later that i was considered to be a snob!!! (and i always thought i was a peoples person). Well their also I managed one good friend... who till date taunts me for all the attitude i gave back then!! ( Some people just dnt grow up ;P).. College life is supposed to be the most colourful time in a teenagers life... but being the big bore/snob that i was I started working with local NGO's and hence my presence in college was minimum.. Still that phase again i managed to get another friend who has been a wonderful blessing... She brought out another side of me out which I was not aware of ( Both of being Gemini had loads of facets) In the mean time I continued working.. and one side effect of working is you end up dealing with people who are elder then your own age so I had a lots of mentors who were elder but i bonded well with them... Had good learning graph thanks to them... Each of my job has taught me something... added something to my personality and made me what I am today. Ouch getting in the emotional mode i guess.. back to the point!

Of all this their is a friend who just came bumped in to my life and is today a very integral part... We still wonder how was it that we got talking in the first place.. but sometimes its destiny which plays its role well... That funny cartoon has been a blessing in disguise... and i m sure after reading i will get some more wise cracks! My first work after college which can be called my first official jobs out of NGO's was in an organisation where we were 4 women and since then all the organisations that i have worked ( except the current one ) have had imbalanced ration of woman:man say 4:1... All my guy friends always wanted to work in the organisation that i was (;P)... Working with woman has its own pros and cons... I cant count the number of media rounds in Ahmedabad with my collegue which ended at either a shopping mall or a coffee shop!! That used to be the best time... Finish work and hang out shopping or yummy coffee at Shambhu's... Long lunch breaks with microwave in office.. hand beated coffees...

That reminds me... my jobs introduced me to my first love - 'Coffee'... I was never into tea/coffee... but since I started work it became a ritual to have that morning cup of coffee as you come to office then one post lunch.. and one some time in evening before leaving... and if its gonna be a late nite.. then one more... Each office had its special coffee.. Ahmedabad we had beated coffee followed by filter coffee which we brought post our offsite down south... I had mastered the art of making best coffee and Its still my speciality!! Mumbai we went back to hand beaten coffee... we had a coffee beating gang... 3-4 of us had this ritual we followed in our office pantry and our popularity grew and i guess if v would have made a facebook community we would have got quite a few 'likes'...

Mumbai is the city which gave me more friends in one year then i had made in 22 years of life.. and today if I start counting those who I simply cant miss or ignore for a given occasion my hand falls short! That is quite something for someone who was considered a snob! I made so many of them...

My second stint in this city of dreams gave me some more friends who have become such an integral part of my life.. This time around I got to stay on my own with room mates which was a complete new experiance for some one who has lives in the protected environment of home for 23 years of life... Have eccentric people staying with me... the thing that connected each one of us - books... each one of us loves to read and we can catch our corners in the house and read!, films - each one of us is a filmi kida and we can go on and on if we are left to see the films... Food - Inspite of my hang ups in food due to my religion (which I am proud of and some people simply annoyed) connected.. My jain food became famous and I converted few of them atleast when i cook! In my current office we have a lunch table gang... Each one of us are as different as tom and jerry! ( couldnt think of any better simile) but when together we are a riot... Once again a bunch of people who i will never forget wherever I go and whatever I do!

If I see my friends list on facebook out of 560 people I have atleast 50 (wait is it all or more!!!) who i am close to! the rest I am regular acquaintance and catch up once in a while (online/ offline).

Oh in all this i forgot I have friends and then I have friends who have become my friends due to one of our comman friend and then we continue to stay in touch and become good friends.. Then their were people I spoke.. ignored and now speak again... In short if i make a transcript of the amount of gtalk chats I am sure I would be able to compile a huge volume of conversations!!!

PS: I think i went autobiographical but guess those who know me would not mind it!!!